Standing Up 2 Cancer

I think we’re all familiar with cancer. Too familiar. I have yet to meet someone that wasn’t touched by cancer. My first experience was when my best friend, Becky, was diagnosed with leukemia while we were still in elementary school. I remember she couldn’t come out to play, how thin she got, how sick she was, the odd bruises, the pic line in her chest, her head with just a smattering of random hairs on it, and always her big smile and infectious laugh. We’d play with her wigs for hours over at her house. Once, when she was doing really well and seemingly healthy, her parents let her stay overnight at my house. We were so excited! She forgot her jammies, so I lent her a pair of mine. Becky had one really long hair on her head, surrounded by a bunch of short ones…we entertained ourselves by standing that hair up and watching it “dance” while she wobbled her head. I remember we laughed late in the night at her dancing hair and we talked about all the things we would do once she got better.

I’m not sure how long after our sleepover that Becky got really sick again; I was too young to really pay attention to the passing of time. One day my fifth grade teacher (who had Becky in her class the year prior) pulled me out into the hall. She told me, with big teary eyes that Becky had died earlier that morning. I must’ve had the blankest look on my face because she asked if I had heard her. I nodded my head, went back in the classroom and put my head down on my desk. It didn’t seem real.

A few days later was Becky’s funeral. I walked in with my mom, took one look at that casket and stopped dead in my tracks. I had already been to a few funerals already…great-grandparents who were very old. But way up in the front of the room was my best friend, in her favorite wig, dead. Silly, laughing Becky who was only a few months older than me was gone. My mom tried to move me but I couldn’t make my feet move forward. Becky’s mom came and asked if I wanted to go with her, and as much as I thought I wanted to, I couldn’t. I was too afraid. So my mom and Becky’s mom talked quietly a few moments and we left.

We got home and I got ready for bed. I opened my drawer with my jammies and saw the set Becky wore when she stayed over. I pushed them to the back of the drawer and never wore them again.

So I’m standing up to cancer for Becky. And for my grandpa who used to share his M&Ms with me when I was little, and died of throat cancer when I was only 16 (I could almost dedicate an entire blog just to him). For my great-grandmother I never got to meet who died of “woman’s cancer” (guessing either ovarian, uterine, or cervical cancer…my grandmother never specified when she told me). For my great-uncles, brothers, Richard and Micky; one who was a fabulous musician and one who taught me how to peel an orange. For our friend Kari’s mom, who was one of the funniest ladies I’ve ever had the pleasure of meeting, who passed from abdominal cancer. And for the countless others out there currently fighting.

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About the Author


This is a blog where I will share my adventures and mundane tasks as a work-out-of-home-mom. I now have 2 kids and my wonderful husband, so the juggling has gotten a little bit more tricky (man-on-man defense). We also have 2 dogs and 3 cats (we used to have 4) so as you can imagine, our household is pretty busy. Since I never feel like I'm being listened to, I figured I'll just start talking at the general Internet community and see what happens.


Karen MEG

Wow, Colleen, to have your best friend succumb when you were both so young. How traumatic.

Everyone is touched by cancer. My Father in law died just as I started dating my husband – never saw hubs graduate from university, get married, or knew that he had more grandchildren. He had just retired and was diagnosed with multiple myeloma. He was 62.
So glad you posted this.

Colleen - Mommy Always Wins

I’m in tears AGAIN tonight after reading your heart wrenching post. The commercial my boys were in (that I mentioned via plurk) was an interview of my Mom, a cancer survivor who originally was told her tumor was inoperable and that she had 6 mo to live. It aired on one of our local stations tonight during the Stand Up for Cancer special. She spoke about getting secong opinions and never giving up hope. My oldest was just nearly a year old when she had her surgeries, and seeing him toddle into her hotel room over and over again gave her that hope.

I only hope EVERYONE stands up to cancer and really hopes to make a difference. There are too many stories like yours and mine.


You’re right, everyone is touched by cancer in some way. I’m so sorry that you lost a friend when you were so young. That’s hard stuff.

swirl girl

I know all too well , as an adult – how shitty it is.

I can’t imagine as a child having the literal innocence of youth sucked out of you that way.

I participate in the Relay for Life (our local is Oct.4th) and this year – I am doing the survivor walk. So weird to say that word…but I am doing it.


Great post. Death is so un-natural for children, it’s always so strange to consider it from a child’s perspective.
And cancer is very indiscriminate about who is chooses to take…


Wow. That must have been so tough to deal with at such a young age. I’m sorry.

So many of my family members have died of cancer, also. It hits me very close to home.


Oh Colleen. That is a sad story. I can’t imagine going through that at that age.
I have said it before and I will say it again. Cancer is terrifying. The one word we never want to hear when discussing loved ones.
I hope and pray that one day it will be gone.


Good for you!!!
How awful to have lost a childhood friend like that 🙁
My godmother was diagnosed w cervical cancer at 23, my aunt is currently battling cancer, and my favorite uncle died of lung cancer. Let’s stand up to cancer together!


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